Sometimes There's God So Quickly

As A Streetcar Named Desire gets closer to closing, I've started to reflect on what theatre does for me personally. I am the person I'm supposed to be because of everyone and everything Theatre has brought to me. I have never felt more accepted or loved than when I am in the theatre. Even if nobody comes to shows I do, I still have the family I chose for myself. 

I know that there are some people are now a part of my life that I feel closer to than members of my family. This is because we're allowed to feel together. People in this department have seen me completely fall apart more often than members of my family. We are in a place where emotions are okay- where tears and laughter can exist in the same space and nobody will think you are weak for opening up. 

All I know is that in this moment, I feel closer to my best self than I have in a long time. I love who I'm becoming and will forever be indebted to the people who hold onto me when I cry and sit with me until I'm calm. These are the same people that are there when I don't realize I need someone. Blanche DuBois had it exactly right when she said, "Sometimes there's God so quickly."