It has been some time since I've posted about things. My brother and I have not had to do our duet since the last post, but I continue to work on my part. I am also in a strange place where I am beginning to question myself as far as my future goes. I am not sure I want to continue performing after I graduate. As strange as that might seem, I have been overwhelmed with confusion and frustration concerning my performances. I am much more confident than I have ever previously been but there are many times when I think, "I don't want to do this anymore" and I don't know what to do with those thoughts.
It is not a matter of being good enough, it's a lack of performance outside of classroom settings that is getting me down. I don't blame anybody but myself for this. I suppose I'm simply very bogged down by a lot of things going on in my life that I truly cannot afford to cut out. I look forward to the day I do not have to focus all my energy in ten different directions.
Here's to hoping I get some sort of answer by the end of my time with A Streetcar Named Desire.
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